Just 3 days ago, (Sunday 25th) I attended a very distant relative's son's wedding banquet. Not that I was very keen, but my mom was not able to make it, so between me and my brother, it was decided that I attend on her behalf together with my dad.
This is the first time for me to have a dinner wif some of my uncles and aunties, sitting together at the table, being the youngest. So I had the opportunity to listen to some of the gossips around.
They talked about everything and anything... But something caught my ear.... Its about my grandpa. Well, my mom's dad that is.
He's way above 80 years of age, still pretty strong, though lately having some problems with the intestines. Well, many would have thought that he's very content with his life already... He is already a great-grandpa. To many, he has not live his life in vain... But he still has one worry. His oldest son.
Well, this uncle of mine is a mute. Around 60 years of age. In the past, he's still working in a factory, until the factory has closed down. So currently, he's jobless. Not that they need the money for bread & butter... But my grandpa is concern... Should he pass on one day, who'll take care of him? Since he's jobless, there's nothing he much he can do at home.
Sigh~ no wonder my grandpa looks so aged all of a sudden.
I wonder if there's anyway to help him. Anyone knows of any society (in Singapore) that can help give my uncle something to do?
Do let me know...

Well... other than the gossips and chats, I also thought of many things.. You know, being single and going to a wedding can be pretty upsetting for me. Heheh... Yeah, here i'm lamenting about me being single again. LOL...

Anyway, while at the banquet, I thought about my own future wedding banquet. The most important of all, my wedding should be held at a ballroom of a grand hotel, and not just a restaurant. Afterall, this is just an once in a life-time event, of course it has to be memorable. So time to start saving up and getting on other jobs.

Hmmm.. Seems like I know something more about myself now. Someone who is： 脸皮很薄， 而很爱面子
I really mind how people see me, the impressions that I leave behind. So maybe that's why, I look strong on the outside, but am pretty emotional on the inside? LOL

Well well... Many things happen in our lifes that need us to get used to. From young, perhaps getting a new born baby brother, having to get used to sharing our toys, going to kindergarten, having to get used to being separated from our parents, going to schools, getting used to having lots more homework, tests and exams...
Now... after 23 years, I've to get used to....... Wearing Specs! Thats right folks, the girl who has always been proud of her perfect eyesight is now having to wear specs. Hahaha... Well, I must say, I look GOOD in specs! LOL. Anyway, my vision is still pretty perfect, is just that I have Augstimatism. (Correct Spelling?) In Chinese is 闪光! Well, no thanx to playing pc, and doing so many stuffs with it, as I'm now an IT Trainer, I'm facing the PC/Mac more than 12 hours a day. What to do.... Sigh~ But at least I still have the option to only wear it when my eyes gets tired, watching movies, attending lectures, (does that include me as the lecturer?) working with computer, (gotta make full use of it, as my lens are made for protecting eyes when using computer), hmm... what else? Maybe as and when I feel the need to wear it I suppose.

Well, today (23rd Sept 2005) at 1830 is the time when I first collected my specs. Felt very happy and excited. LOL... Am I the only one who'll feel this way? Hmmm...
Anyway, took a bus home, and about 10 minutes before reaching the interchange, I decided to wear my specs for the first time. Initially felt good, but slowly, felt as if I'm floating in the air. Den had to remove it for awhile. When I reach home, after taking my bath, I put on the specs again. This time, I'm not letting it go, until I'm goin to bed. Gotta get used to it, if not, I might just feel very giddy while walking outside.
As I'm typing now, my specs is accompanying me. Hee~

Hmmm... See when I've the opportunity to take a photograph of myself with my new-buddy, Specs, then will upload and show to all of you, how nice I look. Kekeke...
OH! And tomorrow I've to go back to office for some stuffs. See what my colleagues would say. Kekeke... Then I gotta tell them, I work too hard for the company already, so need to get specs. Wonder if my company will re-embursed me.
LOL... Nah~ I don't believe it will happen.

Anyway, its late now, gotta turn in. Goodniteyz Readers!

My frenz from Holland has gone back home, as I've said previously in one of my post, I'll post pictures here. The pictures is only with me and my gal friend. I've met up with his cousin too, and his gf, and we took a neo-print. Will upload that neo print pict at a later date.

Here's the pict taken in a Jap Restaurant in Suntec City.

Many times after something has happened, we would think: "This could have been done better!" or "I shouldn't have chosen this!" "Darn, why did I......" etc...

Recently I came to know about a nice lady who has decided to be ordained as a nun due to a terrible terrible horrible heartache...
When I read bout it, I felt the lady was being silly, she shouldn't give up everything, just because a jerk broke her heart.
And then I realise...
I've been doing the same thing, giving up on other pleasures in life cuz of a jerk who broke my heart.

Like the many people out there -
The Tears still drop when watching romantic shows;
The Mind still think back on the yester-years gone by;
but nothing will ever change the fact of the break up & heartaches.
Though its never easy to walk on;
Find other things in life that gives you pleasure in.
Treasure other things that you still have

Whatever has happened has happened. Being hopeful of patching up, doesn't hurt, but why hurt yourself while being hopeful.
There's so much to do while waiting for another wonderful person to appear.

Well... another 'easier said then done' advice perhaps, but I'm gonna try my best. Let my tears fall if they want, but just for that while, and I'm gonna laugh again.

P.S - Clara if you're reading this, thanx for your thoughtful comment.
Cheers

Date: 9th Sept
Time: 1400

My heart is broken once again, by the same person 1.5 yrs ago...

"Lonely, I'm so lonely... I've nobody, on my own"

Well well... am back to the dashboard, after a great teachers' day celebration and getting wonderful gifts from my students. They are so sweet~!
Anyway, after the celebrations, came the september one week holidays. BUT.... no holidays for me... In fact, I'm even busier than usual.
Mondays to Wednesday... having lessons from 800 to 1315 and another lesson from 1400 to 1645, and left school 45 minutes later. I have less than 2 hours of time to do my work, let alone go and have my lunch!
Thursday also had lessons till 1315, but at least manage to prepare my lessons for teachers' workshop on iMac comin monday. Phew~ but its not really completed yet. Looks like my weekends gonna burn =(
Anyway, just as I thought today's friday, and I can have the time to finish my stuffs. Guess what~ the school's having an event for the teachers and I'm in charge of doing video shooting. Looks like year end, I'll have tonnes of videos to edit.
Lucky the next "long" holiday is year end. By then, I pray that I'll have more time to do my editing and other work.