"It is dating with a purpose. It's friendship plus possibility. It's romance chaperoned by wisdom. That's what i mean by setting a clear course for romance. It's not without risk; it's simply a way to be careful with the other person's heart while opening up your lives together to God's joyful best." - Taken from "Boy Meets Girl" By Joshua Harris

For the past 2 days, I've began reading normal books. I mean NO more books on Computing/Software. My brother bought this book for my birthday on July. Its been more than 4.5 months, when it suddenly draw me to it. To enlighten me. I was confused, unhappy and not knowing what to do in terms of my love life. Slowly I've learned. It requires patience. Yup... Like what the author describes....

".. going out to a fine restaurant with someone who doesn't have the patience to wait for each course of the meal to be served. The master chef has a wonderful plan that takes time to appreciate fully. But instead of enjoying each course individually, your date insists that all the courses - the drinks, the soup, the salad, the entree, the dessert - be blended together into one bowl of mismash. YUCK!"
"..... Instead of savoring the "courses" of an unfolding love story - acquaintance, friendship, courtship, engagement, marriage - impatient couples mash the sequence together. Before they've built a friendship, they start playing at love. Before they even thought about commitment, they're acting as though they own each other. Mishmash romance, like mishmash food, is an unappetizing mess."

I guess things do happen for a reason.
My impatience in relationships got me this far. Gave me the experience. And my brother buying this book so that I can learn from it. How funny things can just fall in place...

As I continue to read, maybe I'll post a few more lines that I find pretty interesting to share with. Though I'm not a Christian, and the book is writing in a Christian's point of view, but I still think it is a very good book. Read with open mind and heart, will be able to receive and understand better.
Acquaintance, Friendship, Courtship, Engagement, Marriage is what I've been looking for... But I didn't know how to go about getting to it.
Patience...

Another weekend is passing... My students competing in an competition is finishing their video soon. They are already in their editing phase. I'm so proud of them. Hopefully they will be able to win something. Not for the school, not for me, but for themselves. They definitely deserve it.

Well, did something extra-ordinary this weekend.. Friday met up with my Sec school friend Jac and her Uni friends from Melbourne. They are a fun bunch of people. Enjoyed their company. Drank abit, laughed a lot, almost felt like crying out that day. Well, of course this is nothing extra-ordinary.
Here's the non-ordinary.. I deleted 2 people from my friendster list... Yupz.. 1 = One of my Ex, another = The guy who led me on. I have to get rid of them. Get them out of my life. Oh, and I've just deleted them from my mobile list.
Yesh... But there's still one name that I'm contemplating. LOL... Ya ya, indecisive again...
But its an improvement...

Sigh~ Things seem not to be going well for my work life. Apparantly, the company is arranging for another person to take over me in school for the remaining few weeks before end of the school's contract. And I had to hear this information from my HOD. What sorta management can make me listen to them, if they aren't doing the things themselves, that they expected of you?
Since I'm part of the school, they should have the courtesy to inform me of anything of any changes. They also don't reply to my emails, and they expect me to do that? RUBBISH!
Do unto others what you want them to do unto you. You want me to show respect, courtesy, and reply your email, you should jolly well reply mine too!

Sorry to make you people read about my complaints. Talking about them boils my blood, but at least now I feel abit better inside.

Anyway, hope to post better stuffs here in the future... Another photo...
Cheers

After a long time, I finally went on an overseas trip. Well, its just over the sea from Sentosa Island to the nearby Kusu Island as well as St. John's Island. Kekeke.
Well, though not very far, but at least it allowed me to escape from the city life for awhile, at least for 6 hours.
Unlike during the lunar 9th month, where a lot of devotees will visit the island to pray to the temple and keramat on the island, today was pretty quiet. I went with my colleague, Nurul. It was truly a day where we enjoyed, relax and temporarily forgotten about work stuffs.



Everything was so nice and relaxing, I suggested to my friend to organise a trip for a few close colleagues to come here and picnic. The ferry is 45 min from Sentosa, pretty near, the beach is pretty nice too, not crowded. But not advisable to swim there as there's no lifeguard on duty.

Anyway, both me and my friend were pretty excited when we saw a pretty huge turtle, swimming to the surface to grab the bread that we've thrown into the water. Hehehe, its said that seeing the turtle means good fortune and good luck. I certainly needed it. Both of us felt very privilledged as the turtle surfaced when there were no other people around. Think I'll not forget this moment.

The ferry from Kusu Island next goes to St. John's Island. Heard the brief and interesting about the island, and again we walked around. Went into the campsite, found a human chessboard, found a mosque and an rumoured haunted abandoned house, but I'm not as brave to go up the hill near the abandoned house. Main reason, its surrounded by tonnes of blood thirsty mosquitoes, (I've been donating my blood to mosquitoes since young, its about time i stop doing it already. ) And, I admit, I'm scared that I might have nightmares. LOL

Well, I'm very glad to have gone on this trip. Seems like everythng is pre-arranged. After going through a tough time with work, boss, school, boys, and able to go to Kusu Island, pray, felt at ease, and feeling better armed now to battle it out.

Appreciate the organisers to the trip. Kudos guys!
Looking forward to more exciting trips!

Its been a while since I last updated my blog. Been too busy with my work. Time just never seem to be enough.
Its been tiring... Mentally and physically. Sigh~ I just wish to go into a deep deep hibernation during this cold winter time or maybe hibernate during the spring, summer, autumn too.
Suddenly, I just felt like I don't have the energy to move. Just feel like every inch of me is slowly turning heavy. I need a match to light up and melt myself. I thought I've found my match. But unfortunately, the match is wet...

So many things are happening, my company might be giving me a warning letter, work overload with projects to rush and students' projects to mark. Competitions coming up. I really need a getaway. Maybe a getaway to my bed, blanket and pillows, or a cave away from this world.

Though I thought I've found a match to melt myself, I am not sure if the match will be dry. Or will it ever light up and melt me. There are too many possibilities that will or will not happen. Maybe instead of waiting for things to happen, instead of waiting for someone to light up my life, I should burn myself. Self-ignite. Not literally burning myself and having to suffer scalds & burns and be in pain. But to fill my life with passion. Doing things I love. Doing things My way. And perhaps along the way to find someone to share my love, joy, laughter with and also some woes and pain. Kinda tired of going through life's ups and downs alone most of the time.

One thing positive thing I just realise.... Blogging can help me think things through. Well, I did write letters to an imaginary friend years before the time of blogging, guess its great to have such an wonderful online tool.

Thank goodness today's my last day of having classes. No more shouting and screaming at kiddos. The only class that I'll be having will be with my competition team consisting of less than 10 students. Hopefully this team will be able to win something.

Perhaps today's blog seemed a bit confusing, bits and pieces here and there or sound irrational. But I just thought I need to penned something down. Well, at least now am not as depressed as 1 hour ago.

I wish for strength to move on and to have my passion build up for my 2nd job. I need to make it a success. I want to succeed. Divert my strength and attention to that direction. Unless anything special happens, then maybe a change of plans. LOL... Yesh... I laugh.