Its been a while since I last updated my blog. Been too busy with my work. Time just never seem to be enough.
Its been tiring... Mentally and physically. Sigh~ I just wish to go into a deep deep hibernation during this cold winter time or maybe hibernate during the spring, summer, autumn too.
Suddenly, I just felt like I don't have the energy to move. Just feel like every inch of me is slowly turning heavy. I need a match to light up and melt myself. I thought I've found my match. But unfortunately, the match is wet...

So many things are happening, my company might be giving me a warning letter, work overload with projects to rush and students' projects to mark. Competitions coming up. I really need a getaway. Maybe a getaway to my bed, blanket and pillows, or a cave away from this world.

Though I thought I've found a match to melt myself, I am not sure if the match will be dry. Or will it ever light up and melt me. There are too many possibilities that will or will not happen. Maybe instead of waiting for things to happen, instead of waiting for someone to light up my life, I should burn myself. Self-ignite. Not literally burning myself and having to suffer scalds & burns and be in pain. But to fill my life with passion. Doing things I love. Doing things My way. And perhaps along the way to find someone to share my love, joy, laughter with and also some woes and pain. Kinda tired of going through life's ups and downs alone most of the time.

One thing positive thing I just realise.... Blogging can help me think things through. Well, I did write letters to an imaginary friend years before the time of blogging, guess its great to have such an wonderful online tool.

Thank goodness today's my last day of having classes. No more shouting and screaming at kiddos. The only class that I'll be having will be with my competition team consisting of less than 10 students. Hopefully this team will be able to win something.

Perhaps today's blog seemed a bit confusing, bits and pieces here and there or sound irrational. But I just thought I need to penned something down. Well, at least now am not as depressed as 1 hour ago.

I wish for strength to move on and to have my passion build up for my 2nd job. I need to make it a success. I want to succeed. Divert my strength and attention to that direction. Unless anything special happens, then maybe a change of plans. LOL... Yesh... I laugh.